Did I ever tell you that I was a
cheerleader for a day?
Maybe it was longer than a day.
Maybe it was a week. The only thing I can say for sure is that it clearly did
not last very long. My best friend was a cheerleader, and I'd spend many
Sundays watching her cheer at football games. I figured that since I was a
dancer, I could also be a cheerleader. But... well, it didn't work out for me.
Sports just were not my thing.
So it's pretty hilarious to me that
I've recently started working in (and loving) the fitness and sports
industry. Sports still aren't my thing. In fact, if you were to ask me what my
favorite part of a Patriots game was, I'd say "buffalo chicken dip."
Anyways, here I am... in the sports
industry... going through a manager
training program. And part of that manager training program was taking on a
30-day FITNESS challenge.
My first reaction was “Ugh, no
thanks.” Despite not loving sports, I've gotten into fitness over the past few
years. Mostly that means doing yoga in my bedroom or going for walks around
lakes and through the woods. I had no interest in taking up Crossfit, or going
to bootcamp
or joining a GYM. I convinced myself that those things just “weren’t my
scene” and that was OK.
Initially, I thought that I’d write
it off since I already did a 30-day yoga challenge in January. But... that
wasn't the point of the challenge. And really, that wasn’t much of a challenge
at all. It was at-home yoga on my bedroom floor. Sometimes it involved
lying on a blanket in the end. And sometimes I did it while also watching Parks
and Recreation.
This challenge had to entail changing
my mindset about a fitness activity that I had reservations about.
Something I always wanted to try but was too scared. For me, that’s pretty much
any group class… especially when by myself. But the one class I’ve always
wanted to try but was WAY TOO SCARED was barre class.
I had this vision of super fit
girls with high ponytails laughing with each other in their yoga pants that
matched their sports bras. I didn’t fit in with those girls. My yoga mat is
from Target and has my dirty footprints all over it. Those girls would all
laugh at me when I couldn’t do the moves!
I had this hang-up about group
classes, especially “trendy” ones, being some sort of exclusive club that I
wasn’t allowed to enter. The only way I’d ever go to a class was if I got
really good at it and then went to class and BLEW EVERYONE ELSE AWAY.
But that’s not the point of fitness
classes. How does one get good at something they never practice? Do we expect
to all be born NATURALS?
The actual challenge was to choose
a fitness activity and do it for 30 days. It didn’t mean we had to go to class
every day, but we had to practice in some way every day for 30 days. I chose Barre and Soul in Melrose because I always
wanted to go there (I love the name) and they had an introductory membership
cost of $79 which is pretty cheap. I made the goal of going to class four times
a week for four weeks. In between classes, I’d do my usual at-home yoga
practice to recover and stretch but also to keep using the muscles and doing
some sort of activity.
Going to that first class was
TERRIFYING. I was really nervous. In fact, I couldn’t even go to barre
at first because I was still so scared, so I chose a vinyasa yoga class because
at least I was familiar with it and could scope out the studio situation.
When I walked in, I was literally
shaking but I just followed what everyone else was doing. I got a yoga mat, I
got blocks, I got a blanket... I had no idea what all the props were for, but I
got them because I wasn't going to be the ONLY DUMMY WITHOUT PROPS.
Thankfully, I was able to do the
whole class easily keeping up with others in the class, and then some - blowing
away my theory that everyone would be better than me and make fun of me. Nobody
was paying ANY attention to each other at all. And, since we’re adults, nobody
laughed out loud or said, “I can’t believe that girl can't do a standing split
without a block!!!"
So I had a great workout and I
really enjoyed the class. As soon as I left, I signed up for a barre class the
next day. And sure, it was fucking scary. And I hesitated to go. And I wished I
hadn’t scheduled it for after work because I had ALL day to think about it and
pull out of it… but I WENT. And it was fine. It was a little scary, and REALLY
FUCKING HARD and my thighs felt like they were going to fall off… but I did it.
And I went back. Again and again.
And not only did I get more confident every single time (even though it was
still hard), but I actually really started to LOVE it. So much so that I had a
class scheduled and when I found out there was going to be a snowstorm, I
canceled it and booked it for a day earlier so I wouldn’t miss the workout.
The goal of the challenge was to
change our mindset and get more comfortable with growth. In order to grow, we
need to step outside of our comfort zone. We need to hear what we need to work
on, we need to try new ways of doing things, we need to take risks, we need to
be more collaborative, we need to experience something new in order to stretch
ourselves as human beings.
My mindset towards barre was warped
and completely fabricated based on my own fear and insecurity. I’m so afraid of
what people think that I’m holding myself back from great opportunities. I’m
afraid of changing things, or trying something new, not because I’m afraid I’ll
fail… but because I’m afraid of LOOKING STUPID. And that’s completely
ridiculous.
Going to barre almost every day for
the past month has been, I'm so sorry to use this word,
but life-changing. It has made me physically stronger and given me a new
party trick (holding a bouncing ball between my thighs with ease) (as you can
probably tell, I don’t go to many parties). But it’s also made me embrace the
notion of starting somewhere. We’re not supposed to be automatically
good at anything. We’re just supposed to try our best, start somewhere and deal
with the fact that we all look like idiots together with the hopes of eventually
looking less like idiots.
I extended my barre membership for
another three months and I plan to keep going 4-5 times a week. And honestly, I
feel like a god damn BARRE WARRIOR for stepping out of my comfort zone and
loving it.
So now, about 20 years later, I
think I'm FINALLY ready to march down to the local baseball
field-turned-football field during football season and become a cheerleader for
Everett's pop warner football league!!!! See you soon, D team girls!!!!
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